I physically felt my homesickness today. Like, my heart literally hurts and I feel like I’m going to throw up. That’s crap, because I want to enjoy my time here, but I just can’t shake these homesick blues. The US Embassy in Bangkok had an online meeting today for American citizens living in the area. (It was unsafe to have the meeting in the city like originally planned.) The whole thing was pointless, though. In a nutshell, they basically said, “Leave if you want, stay if you want…it’s up to you.” Thanks for the profound insight. The word FRUSTRATING doesn’t even begin to describe my sentiments towards that. I guess that means I’m staying, because obviously God called me here and I’m trying my best to stay smack in the center of His will. Like mama always said, “There’s no safer place than in the center of the Lord’s will.”

Well, I’m still on holiday at Koh Samet, but honestly, it’s not as amazing as it sounds. Sure, I lay out by the beach everyday and I rented a sweet Carolina blue motorbike to drive around the island…but I am so sick of sweating, sand, bugs, and doing the same thing every single day. I mean, it’s been fun…but I really just want to get back to Bangkok and do my best to settle in and force my new apartment to feel like home. I’m worried about Skeeter, too…I left him to guard the apartment and hold down the fort, but I’m sure he’s getting lonely. Haha.

So here’s the passage of Scripture that I found myself reading today. Alyse has got me checking out The Message version, and I’m starting to really like it. It just puts it in terms that I’d use myself.

Psalm 119:25-32

I’m feeling terrible—I couldn’t feel worse!
Get me on my feet again. You promised, remember?
When I told my story, you responded;
train me well in your deep wisdom.
Help me understand these things inside and out
so I can ponder your miracle-wonders.
My sad life’s dilapidated, a falling-down barn;
build me up again by your Word.
Barricade the road that goes Nowhere;
grace me with your clear revelation.
I choose the true road to Somewhere,
I post your road signs at every curve and corner.
I grasp and cling to whatever you tell me;
God, don’t let me down!
I’ll run the course you lay out for me
if you’ll just show me how.

Ok, before I sign off…I’d like to thank each and every one of you for the massive amounts of prayers and encouraging comments/messages/emails/tweets/etc. I’m absolutely overwhelmed with the agape love that I’m getting from all of you guys. I’m planning on printing out a lot of the comments and sticking them around my apartment…it makes me miss you, but it still makes me smile, so that’s all that matters. I love you all more than words can say and I appreciate the encouragement.

I’m out. //Cwalk.