“I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.” -Psalm 4:8

To escape the violence in Bangkok, we decided to hit up Koh Samet for a few days. I mean, if you’re gonna escape somewhere, it might as well be a tropical island right? So, here I am…hanging out on my little makeshift bed pad in the floor of a guesthouse bedroom, barely feeling the pathetic breeze from the tiny oscillating fan. That’s ok, though, because the room was super cheap so no complaints here. Free internet is always a plus, too. I’ll just have to ignore the fact that I’m dying of a heat stroke.

It’s good to just hang out for a few days without having to worry about everything going on in Bangkok. Well, that’s not really accurate…I’m still constantly thinking about what’s going on, and constantly appreciating all of the prayers that are being thrown up to God on my behalf back home. THANK YOU!!!!! Seriously, I have such a peace about being here and for some strange reason, my anxiety is at a minimum. The homesickness is about the same though. The US Embassy in Bangkok is having a meeting on Tuesday for all of the US citizens living here. I guess that’s where we’re going to find out the game plan for the next few weeks, or at least until all of this is over. The employees at the Embassy have been given permission to evacuate the country, so I’m actually quite interested to see what they will be telling the rest of us. My heart is heavy, and I feel confused. I don’t even know what I want to happen…I’ve given up A LOT to be here, so despite the constant homesickness, I really don’t think I want to come home just yet. But that’s all up to God…I’m not even trying to figure it all out.

I might have a bone to pick with God if I end up coming home because of all this. Don’t get me wrong…I don’t think I would mind coming home at this point, but I’m just like, “What the crap, God? Why would you call me to come to Thailand, spend all this money on a plane ticket, visa, apartment, etc, put me through the agony of saying goodbye to everyone…just to bring me here for a week and send me back home???” That sounds insane. I’m here. I’m homesick, yet I know God’s called me here. So I plan on staying. But God’s also given me a brain to use, and if the US Embassy recommends that we evacuate and head home…clearly, I’m going to go with that. But WHO KNOWS!? Who knows anything anymore!? Not this girl. I can honestly say that I’m walking blindly by faith. Amazingly, I’m not freaking out or over analyzing everything (as the normal Christin tends to do). So whatever happens, happens. I’m just ready for some normalcy or consistency.

***Fun fact of the day:  The Thai phrase “ling ting tong” means “crazy monkey.” I know this only because I ate at a restaurant (owned by some crazy Canadians) today with that name. Ha.

Well, I think I’m gonna cut this post short, guys. I’m tired. I’m gonna go let Dave Barnes sing me to sleep. His new CD is pretty amazing. *Cwalk recommended. Love yall.

I’m out. //Cwalk.