Well my website is up and running! I have no idea how to maintain it, but that will come with time I guess. I feel as if I’m floating in limbo right now, in some sort of world full of hoops to jump through and to-do lists to check off. AKA: I’m graduating in a little over a week. It’s crazy how fast time goes by…it feels like yesterday that I just moved to Cleveland and began my college career. So much has happened, and I’m a completely different person than I was 5 years ago when I stepped on Lee University’s campus for the first time. I’ve met so many people over those years, and it’s weird to think about 99.9% of them will slowly fade into distant memories after I walk across that stage next week. I’m not good with change; I never have been. In the next two weeks, my life is going to change dramatically, and I’m completely overwhelmed to be honest. I hardly ever cry, but I’ve shed enough tears in the past month to last me for the rest of my life. Goodbye is my least favorite word, and I absolutely despise the thought of it. I don’t even want to think about saying goodbye to my best friends and loved ones, especially for a year or more. Graduating is one thing, but moving to the other side of the world just adds an entirely new dimension to it. I hope and pray that those people who truly care about me will make the extra effort to stay in touch while I’m in Thailand. I hate clichés, but I know there’s a reason for everything. I have no doubt that God has called me to Thailand to teach, so I’m going to do it. I know that the political situation in Bangkok is dangerous, and people remind me everyday how crazy I am for going. But, my mother always says that even in the middle of all that, if I’m in God’s will, I’m safer there than I am in good ol’ Cleveland, Tennessee. I’m not used to experiencing so many emotions simultaneously…excitement, dread, happiness, sadness, nervousness, nostalgia, anxiety, apathy, depression, readiness. Everything. It all just floods over me at different times of the day as if it’s an emotional roulette. I’m trying to focus on my relationship with God so as to not be distracted from my purpose, but it’s hard with so many distractions. I’m ready to just rip this off like a Bandaid. I’m ready to just be done with school, moved to Bangkok, and teaching my Thai kids. 11 days.

I’m out. //Cwalk